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You can be who you want to be
Make up rules to your own game
But I quit that long ago
Cause when I grew, you stayed the sameAnd you can play the victim
Tell them all I just went crazy
But we know, we both know
Your memory is not that hazyI was falling down, I was crying out
Waving my flag for a hand to lend
Sent my signal loud, you didn’t hear a sound
I thought I’d sent an SOS to a friend
But you passed me by
And you told them lies
You kicked me hard when I was downSo let’s set it straight, what happened
When I was drowning, you chose not to see
But still you had a lot to say about it
But you said it to everyone but meYou tried to tear me down while I kept your secrets
Standing still while I tried to see my own dreams through
So you love misery doesn’t mean that I should too
Jealousy is a bad look on youI was falling down, I was crying out
Waving my flag for a hand to lend
Sent my signal loud, you didn’t hear a sound
I thought I’d sent an SOS to a friend
But you passed me by
And you told them lies
You kicked me hard when I was downYou think you play a good guy well
But I know all the things you’ve said
You tell yourself you’re happy this way
But only you have to live inside your headI was falling down, I was crying out
Waving my flag for a hand to lend
Sent my signal loud, you didn’t hear a sound
I thought I’d sent an SOS to a friend
But you passed me by
And you told them lies
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All of this time walking in daydream
Only to find a world that’s not what it seemsWoke up to light that blinded and burned
I flew to close to the sun, wings on fire, lesson learnedFell from the sky, I don’t think you thought I would drown
But your soul was the sea that pulled me all the way downThere must be more than a pinpoint of love that could be mine
But your star burned so bright that I let it fill the entire skyIt must be possible to swim, there must be a way to not fall in
I won’t stay faithful to something I have no faith in
It must be possible not to drown, to keep my head about me when you’re around
It must be that you are not the best part of meStanding on the edge of something I can’t explain
Knowing that if I jump, you won’t break my fall, you won’t ease the pain
What is this thing? What are we doing? Your heart is not mine
What is love worth when it happens at the wrong time?There must be more than a pinpoint of love that could be mine
But your star burned so bright that I let it fill the entire skyIt must be possible to swim, there must be a way to not fall in
I won’t stay faithful to something I have no faith in
It must be possible not to drown, to keep my head about me when you’re around
It must be that you are not the best part of meI can’t shake you off
Will I hit rock bottom or find the shore?
Trying to keep my head up for air
Will I dive into you or can I swim some more?
Let me stay in the dreamThere must be more to life than waiting for someone like you
But your heart burned so bright that you made it so easy to doIt must be possible to swim, there must be a way to not fall in
I won’t stay faithful to something I have no faith in
It must be possible not to drown, to keep my head about me when you’re around
It must be that you are not the best part of me
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I stood in a hallway of my design
Your face in rows of frames along each side
Like walking the plank surrounded by my mistake
What was I thinking to paint you that way?I light the match that will burn this place down to the ground
Let the flames fly wild and free
Halo of ashes as they rain down on me
Patron saint of not letting go
Queen in her crown of told you so
I’ll be as petty as I pleaseI fell from a cliff, or maybe I jumped
If I thought you were there calling from down below that would be enough to jump
Like flying, like dying
Like finding an empty space in your placeI light the match that will burn this place down to the ground
Let the flames fly wild and free
Halo of ashes as they rain down on me
Patron saint of not letting go
Queen in her crown of told you so
I’ll be as petty as I please
I’ll be as needy as I needAnd all the time, the drama is at play
With or without you
Cause I knew you’d never stay
I’m on fire, you’re in the front row
Queen of self-sabotage
The star of my own showI light the match that will burn this place down to the ground
Let the flames fly wild and free
Halo of ashes as they rain down on me
Patron saint of not letting go
Queen in her crown of told you so
I’ll be as petty as I please
I’ll be as needy as I need
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Everyday my memory is quicksand
Might write it on the bedroom wall
or the back of my handYou walked beside me, my witness
No life on Earth doesn’t crave thisWhen I needed a sign, you waved your flag
But I was colorblind
And now I see your red
Do you see my flag is white?I need to be shown so many signs, bright and wide,
That there’s an exit and a reason to go from this world of our designYou wrote me letters in a coded language
I was the only one with a key
And sometimes in silence, and sometimes in distance
I can feel your soul move through meWhen I needed a sign, you waved your flag
But I was colorblind
And now I see your red
Do you see my flag is white?And I’m waving it high
If you need a sign, here’s mine
All the language, all the colors, all our world
Gone with a sighI need to be shown so many signs
To see the exit and to see the real you
To see the world that we designed was a lie
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Gratitude as deep as the sea
Long as the list of things he taught to meNature’s beauty, the mystery of the stars
The magical places where his thoughts areWisdom grows year after year
He’s a well-read mind and a musical earInner world that never stops moving
Inner soundtrack that never stops groovingHe’s a liberal heart and an untamed soul
A creative mind and a student of the cosmos
A curious nature, spirit wild and free
And I’m the lucky one cause he gave it all to meEarth traveler, world wanderer
A star gazer and an amateur astronomer
A free thinker, a peace seeker
He’d like to see more love in this world causeHe’s a liberal heart and an untamed soul
A creative mind and a student of the cosmos
A curious nature, spirit wild and free
And I’m the lucky one cause he gave it all to me
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And the rain comes down
Thought I would need you here
But the only sound
Is my mind crystal clearThought this would be so hard
To build a life without you
But now I’m standing on my own two feet
No one can tell me what to doI was always the one with stars in my eyes
And you met me halfway and then backed away
And that’s why they all died
I know that you will never ever forget me
Now that I’m goneI thought you knew me, I guess you don’t
And if you do, then forget it all
Just let me be a face without a name
Don’t write a message, don’t callThought this would hurt like hell
To lose my lover and my closest friend
But the storm has taught me well
I never break because I bendI was always the one with stars in my eyes
And you met me halfway and then backed away
And that’s why they all died
I know that you will never ever forget me
Now that I’m gone
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You paint that smile on your face
You find some words that might be your saving grace
Thought you hung the moon
And you let it go down too soonBoy, are you kidding me?
So many secrets they shouldn’t see
That you’ve shown
Now they know
And you hide while I’m exposed
Hope it hurts when you fall from your pedestalLoving you was a curse
What’s done is done, but you keep making it worse
Thought you were the sun, thought you were the whole sky
But the fire diedBoy, are you kidding me?
So many secrets you didn’t want them to see
Now they do
‘Cause you’re a fool
And you hide while I’m see-through
Hope it hurts when you fall from your pedestalYou paint that smile on your face
Don’t you know they all know you’re a disgrace?Boy, are you kidding me?
So many secrets that they shouldn’t see
That you’ve shown
Now they know
And you hide while I’m exposed
Hope it hurts when you fall from your pedestal
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Two years, you don’t get another try
One lie echoes across time
You were always so blind
You were never very kindAnd I don’t know why you show
Up in my mind some timesIf love is a sea, you wouldn’t touch a drop
Doesn’t hate get boring?
Now I’ve shed you like a skin
I’ll never miss you again
All that’s left is a storyAnd it’s not even a good one
Another drama for the shelfOne word you wouldn’t say
Is sorry so hard you’d let me walk away?
All of this time you’ll spend on your fights
Anything to prove you’re always rightAnd I don’t know why I show
Up to the fight sometimesIf love is a sea, you wouldn’t touch a drop
Doesn’t hate get boring?
Now I’ve shed you like a skin
I’ll never miss you again
All that’s left is a storyAnd it’s not even a good one
Another drama for the shelf
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No one knows where her lonely grows
She waters it like a garden, holds it close like a roseNo one sees when she falls to her knees
She thinks maybe sadness is the only friend I needWhat is left to live for when living is always alone?
And no four walls in this world could ever feel like homeNo one’s coming to find you if you don’t make a sound
Nobody knows that you need to hear that you’re needed around
No one can read your mind
So come on and give someone a sign
Don’t curl up all alone in your garden of loneliness
She’s not your friendNo one knows how deep these roots can go
And so she lies in her garden watching sadness growaround and inside her ‘til loneliness defines her
She curls up small and silent, suffering, who cares who finds herWhat is left of living when death seems so serene?
Rather slip into an ever-long dream than make a scene
But you know thatNo one’s coming to find you if you don’t make a sound
Nobody knows that you need to hear that you’re needed around
No one can read your mind
So come on and give yourself some time
To wake up alone without loneliness
Filling your bed, filling your headWake up, clear the flowers from your eyes
You know you already know their beauty’s a disguise
Wake up, burn that garden to the ground
Run out of the ashes and make a big big soundBurn it down, burn it down
Lay your flowers on the ground
Don’t curl up alone in your garden
It’s not the end for you
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You were a monster under my bed
Every nightmare that wakes me up is you taking up space inside my headYou were a black hole, you spun me inside out
Every dream I had with you was laced with worry and doubtYou were a hurricane, you blew me away
Every moment spent with you was water spinning down the drainYou were the darkness, lust and beauty and sin
I’m tired of running away, open my eyes to let theLight in, let the light in
Help me see with clarity
What it is to be free
To sleep in peaceYou were an overdose, too much too soon
Every time I wake up scared you’re the shadow in the roomYou were the wrong way, and I drove right in
After the wreckage clears, open my eyes to let theLight in, let the light in
Help me see with clarity
What it is to be free
To sleep in peace
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All the things you’ll never see
Overwhelming, overtaking me
And all the things I’ll never say
Hope they find their way to you somedayAnd I don’t blame you, it was fate who was a liar
and I’m not mad at you, I’m too sad to feed that fireThe snow comes down, and I remember
Every detail about you and the last time I saw you in December
God I miss you
Who knew that life would play me for such a fool
But now the snow covers everythingEvery day it hits me over again
When the phone is dead silent and you leave me on read
Only a coward would just go dark
You know your silence can’t put out our sparkAnd I blame you for taking me on this ride
Now I spend my days grieving the loss of someone who hasn’t even diedAnd the snow comes down, and I remember
Every detail about you and how you left me in December
God I miss you
Who knew that life would play me for such a fool
And now the snow covers everythingYou thought this would be easy for me
You told me “you’ll be fine”
Can’t believe it never crossed your mind
That I might want you to be all of mine all of the timeAnd now the place where we once grew
is cold and snow white
And you, you’re always haunting me
I can’t get a silent nightAnd the snow comes down, and I remember
Everything about you and how you left me in December
I miss you so much
Life has made me her fool
And now the snow covers everything
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You are the sky, I am the sea
And the sun is on fire where we meet
You are a star, I am the moon
And you light me up, who knew
That you would be the part of me
That would finally finally be freeAll of the world is in love with you
And I’m starting to think I might be too
Space and time will sing your name
My heart is open and I’m singing the same
You are my horizon, the place that I call homeYou are the wind, I am a tree
And I feel every breath moving through me
And if I’m fire, you are the air
And I breathe just because you are there
You are the ocean, I am the land
You are sunlight on every grain of sandAll of the world is in love with you
And I’m starting to think I might be too
Space and time will sing your name
My heart is open and I’m singing the same
You are my horizon, the place that I call homeAnd they will ask how we learned to fly
A thousand clouds will part where the earth meets sky
You are my horizon, the place that I call home
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Baby, don’t talk tonight
There’s nothing left to fight about anymore
I’ve already been beaten down
My stomach’s in knots, my hearts on the floorYou’re an expert at putting words in my mouth
But you never hear anything that actually comes out
I’m tired, you always make this tough
I know I never asked you for muchBut you couldn’t even meet me halfway
Remember that when you hear yourself say
You lost me, you lost me
You lost me, you lost me
You gave me upI hope you truly wanted me gone
Cause God knows you had it coming all along
All of your logic is slanted
The only truth I know is you took me for grantedSomeday you’ll see the thing that you’ve done
When you weigh your losses to what little you’ve wonI’m sorry that I ever fell for you
Cause now I have to hear myself telling youYou lost me, you lost me, and you don’t care if I’m found
You lost me, Baby you, you let me so far downYour eyes have looked right through me
For weeks that I forgot to count
Maybe you thought your poker face would fool me
But that vacancy’s the reason that I gotta get you outAnd when I am finally myself again
And we meet up, I’ll have nothing to say
And you can play Mr. Apathy, while your heart is screaming
that’s the one that got awayYou lost me, you lost me
Just like you knew you would
You lost me
You lost me for good
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How was I to know
Love would leave real slow
She hid it well
I never could tell
That she was fading
Every day
We’d pretend we were okay
What a lie
Between you and IWhat was left to say?
What role to play?
I forgot my lines so easily
A little at a time, the words they left meAnd so our love took her last breath
We were the ones who brought her to death
Maybe it’s bestWhat is love if she’s not a crush?
I want to chase her but she’ll come and go in a rush
What is love if she’s not a flirt?
She will heal you then she’ll cut you where it hurts
What is love if she’s not for us?What is left to prove?
What more can we lose?
Love is a foe
A sadist who made us watch her come and goWe didn’t try hard enough
To see it through
But in the end I loved love
More than I loved youWhat is love if she’s not a crush?
I want to chase her but she’ll come and go in a rush
What is love if she’s not a flirt?
She will heal you then she’ll cut you where it hurts
What is love if she’s not for us?