Every night the dark comes down so hard you cannot breathe
And even when the morning comes, your heart will not find peace

Little girl, this pain is too big for you, and you already feel so small
The world can be a lonely place if you think no one sees you at all

The colors all drain and the poison ivy grows around your mind
Can’t quite understand why the world is caving in all of the time

But it’s not as bad as it seems, you’ll find a way to be okay
And when you think that your strength cannot last
Just know the present must become the past

Everybody thinks they know that you’re playing a silly teenage game
If they knew the war that you fight, do you think they’d say the same?

Don’t you want to open your heart to the people who loved you all along?
But these days, you wonder who will miss you when you’re gone

Time will change your face, you’ll start to find the answers that you seek
But sometimes in the mirror, still, it’s your face that’s looking back at me

And I would tell you every day
Let this world give you a reason to stay
Just keep both feet on the ground
Keep walking through the dark that you see

Until it finally brings you to me
I’ll share with you the peace that I’ve found

TW: Suicidal ideation

Woke up again today, my head in a haze
I’ve lost all memory of better days
Can’t find the words to say I think I’ve drowned
So I’ll get through this day without making a sound

You’ll think I’m talking to you, but I am not here
Alone in some dark space, a million miles from anywhere
And it’s my heart that’s fighting with my mind
Don’t be mistaken when I tell you I’m doing fine

This is the monster in my head
The fight that leaves me so tired again
And I’m a warrior until the end
But forgive me, I still need a friend

This is the thing that says I’m not good enough
And this is me asking for love when giving it is tough

My soul is heavy and it drags me to the floor
Thinking today’s the day, I can’t go one more
You know I still laugh at jokes and ask how you are
Clean the house and go to work so you’d never know it’s gone this far

Will anyone find me at the bottom of the sea?
My will is growing weak and the weight is crushing me
They’ll say she killed herself, what can you do?
Woke up, my head in a haze; what’s a bad day to you?

This is the monster in my head
The fight that leaves me so tired again
And I’m a warrior until the end
But forgive me, I still need a friend

This is the thing that says I’m not good enough
And this is me asking for love when giving it is tough

Would I be relieved?
Could you let me soul be free?
No, you won’t see me around
Just let the water pull me down

This is the monster in my head
The fight that leaves me so tired again
And I’m a warrior until the end
But forgive me, I still need a friend

R.I.P. to a friend who claimed immortality
Hope you sleep chained to your own hypocrisy

You played a girl's girl
From inside your insecure world
Take a bow for every lie you forged
Let's hear it for our Regina George

The only noise now is echoes
A canyon of your silent sound
Trying to please everyone
Are they happy now?

Looking for validation
Like a fixation
And I'm done

Something that I failed to see
Was that you'd vanish and I would just feel free
Out in the shadows, where did you fall?
But just like you, I won't call

The only noise now is echoes
A canyon of your silent sound
Trying to please everyone
Are they happy now?

Looking for validation
Like a fixation

I respect the dead
I won't raise a ghost from the ground
Have the afterlife you deserve
And silence is my parting sound

There is a love inside my bones
The sacred knowledge I’m not alone
With each breath, wisdom grows
Finding peace with the unknown

There is a blessing in disguise when it rains
We can blossom and we can stand pain
Let me see your spirit, let me see your strength
The only love in this world is what we make

What’s your inner landscape look like
Have you flooded it with your brilliant light?
You’ve always been so daring with your soul
And I’ve been so honest with mine

Let’s create a world where we can be whole
and we can be fine
Without apology

There is a light I let run through me
A ribbon of gold in my head and out my feet
Watch the sky light up, let stardust be your guide
Know that that magic is in you and I

I’ll bring myself flowers, I will make my sun rise
Tap into the well of love that never runs dry

What’s your inner landscape look like
Have you flooded it with your brilliant light?
You’ve always been so daring with your soul
And I’ve been so honest with mine
Let’s create a world where we can be whole
And we can be fine, and I will be your sanctuary
Let’s create a life where the truth is spoken boldly
And we can celebrate not being ordinary
Let’s find the vein of kindness
that is our shared humanity
Let’s blossom in love and light
And let’s do it without apology

When the dust settles, nothing is settled
Let the ashes fill the sky
so heaven can witness our battle cry

Eight minutes and forty six seconds
Hundreds of years, so many generations
How would you feel
When they kill you off then tell you it’s not real

The only thing louder than violence
Is the sound of silence

So the voice of the unheard
Rises in flames of buildings burned
We don’t learn
Choke on the ashes of our grief
Go and burn it to the ground
Tear the whole system down
Fight for what is due, don’t stop making a sound
Til you can breathe
Free

In Minneapolis, he could not breathe
In Texas, they might light you up
In Georgia, they will chase you down the street
In New York City, you might take forty-one shots

It shouldn’t be a mystery
In a country with a God-forsaken history
When fire is met with flame
Time to rise up and beat them at their own game

When they tell you to sit down and be quiet
Cue the riot

So the voice of the unheard
Rises in flames of buildings burned
We don’t learn
Choke on the ashes of our grief
Go and burn it to the ground
Tear the whole system down
Fight for what is due, don’t stop making a sound
Til you can breathe
Free

When the dust settles, nothing is settled
From the ashes we can grow
Keep looking forward, it’s the only way to grow

References:

“In Minneapolis, he could not breathe” – George Floyd

“In Texas, they might light you up” – Sandra Bland

“In Georgia, they will chase you down the street” - Ahmaud Arbery

“In New York City, you might take forty-one shots” – Amadou Diallo

You are royalty to me
I showed my heart, you showed a thief
But that’s okay, it’s yours to keep
Just say you’ll love me, love me this deep
Always, always, my king

I will learn the song of your soul
And sing it when you just don’t know

You are my Northern star
You are my sacred song
If you forget who you are
I’ll be here to put your crown back on
You are not lost, you are not alone
And if your castle’s burning
Let it light your way home

Wish I had known you all of this life
But I will show you we can freeze time
We are infinite
Love knows no limit

I will learn the shape of your heart
And put it together if you fall apart
We are everything

You are my Northern star
You are my sacred song
If you forget who you are
I’ll be here to put your crown back on
You are not lost, you are not alone
And if your castle’s burning
Let it light your way home

And if the journey is long
I won’t stray, I’ll keep singing your song
I’ll hold a mirror up to the sky
Let that Northern star be our guide
Back home to each other, no other could do
My lover, no other but you

I will learn the stars in your eyes
And follow them across the sky

We are infinite
Love knows no limit

You are my Northern star
You are my sacred song
If you forget who you are
I’ll be here to put your crown back on
You are not lost, you are not alone
And if your castle’s burning
Let it light your way home

Saw the look you gave me
Felt the burn of your apathy
Just once can you see through
The brave face that I show you

Hiding again, no you won’t know when
It’s me or I’m pretending again
Put my feelings on the shelf
A reminder to myself that

You’re no good for me
This is not where I should be
Still hanging on to what I want
Hoping you’ll be the one to come through
Let down again, I’m not sure why
I’m still so good to you

The push and pull of your attention span
I’m tired of settling for what I can
Trying to sense the depth in you
But you’re so hard to read
The rug’s pulled out and anxiety
is the reminder I need that

You’re no good for me
This is not where I should be
Still hanging on to what I want
Hoping you’ll be the one to come through
Let down again, I’m not sure why
I’m still so good to you

You’re no good for me
This is not where I should be
Still hanging on to what I want
Hoping you’ll come through
Let down again, I’m not sure why
I stay so good to you

And so it goes that life can change
In a second things go dark
And there you were, unexpected
You lit me up, you were my spark

It seems like gratitude is all the rage
But man, I feel it in my soul every day
Let me try to match your style
Promise to walk every extra mile

Of all the people who will touch us in life, some will change us to the core
The good in you is now a part of me, can’t wait to see what else you have in store
When I was floating out in space alone, you were a touch of sanity
I’d like to be the kind of friend you’ve been to me

And so it goes days get lonely
But you’re the one I wanna hear
Another joke, another story
You have no idea how much I care

You save me from myself
When it’s tough to ask for help
I don’t have to say anything
You always hear my siren ring
And you come

Of all the people who will touch us in life, some will change us to the core
The good in you is now a part of me, can’t wait to see what else you have in store
When I was floating out in space alone, you were a touch of sanity
I’d like to be even half the friend you’ve been to me

And sometimes the quiet falls
My thoughts are heavy, you fill them all
And do you know the things I don’t say
No I won’t let them get in the way

And so it goes you were my spark
The one that walked me out of the dark
I’d like to be the spark someone needs to see
I’d like to be the light in someone’s life like you are for me